Commencement

So this is my new blog. I usually start a separate one for each "stage" of my life. I can remember blogging since at least sophomore year of high school. I just graduated college. Wow, the internet is old!

Graduating college has been a relatively traumatizing experience (ok it's probably nowhere on the gamut of truly traumatizing experiences, but one certainly does go through the shock of realizing one won't stay young forever and that life will be a constantly moving target). When I graduated high school it was like "yeah, I'm free and pumped for this magical dorming summer camp place called college!". Sure, I would miss my friends, but there was just so much to look forward to. Now, I'm living back home (home is a complicated word since my dad is soon selling our house and buying a new one in their home country) and jobless and have to wait at least a year before I can continue school again unless by some miracle I can find a program that starts in January.

It's depressingly lonely, especially since I know it'll be a long time (at least until grad school or until I live on my own) before good times roll in again.

One friend told me she knew the feeling, it's like you graduate and your life is not exactly where you wanted to be.

Another friend told me college was a tease. I knew it was a tease of independence all along, but it's different once the carpet has been pulled.

I wish I had a blanket of the best hand picked happy memories of the past and wrap myself with it and go to sleep.

Edit 5/31/09: I feel I'm more or less back to my regular self again after letting the immediate graduation "shock" settle. Life goes on, and I know there are many great people out there waiting to be met and experiences waiting to be had.